prom nite's next thur..where is the excitement? no sense of urgency to get a prom dress...please let the excitement come real soon...though i know it is totally impossible because i will have to see you again....by the way...for your information..it was a really stupid question to ask.....alright anyway, currently trying to pick up the bits and pieces of my life once again to form a complete picture...i know life can never be perfect..perhaps for me...life's has been utterly messy for me ever since poly has started....always heading to the wrong direction...ultimately, it's always a U-turn for me...what the hell..why would i ever want to bother going straight at all when i have to start everything all over again?and well it sucks knowing that i am going to be 20 soon....another chapter....finally somehow i got a few goals to achieve..be it long term or short term..i so wana achieve them...i swear i do not want to be old fickle-minded me anymore because this is not Kristi...and yeah..i mean it.
